Is my brain injury making me paranoid?

Yesterday I went to the opticians as my eyes have been hurting so much, but maybe I was being paranoid. I already have a prism in my lenses to assist with the double vision, but also my brain isn’t lining the images up properly so it doesn’t completely solve it. But as my eyes aching so much, yanking them out on tooth picks has almost felt like a viable option. So when I’m told they haven’t changed at all I wonder if I’m over thinking the effect of my brain injury? Maybe I just don’t wear my glasses enough. I’m only a tiny bit short sighted so I have been wearing them only for driving. But right this minute I have put them on to type this. The optometrist thinks I might be straining them looking at the screen. Sounds obvious right?

glasses

I find I worry all the time that things are happening as a result of my brain injury because I don’t know what I should expect. It leaves me feeling paranoid.

I didn’t wear glasses before my accident, and I was told that it was only because they prescribed the prism that they bothered to give me glasses at all. I’m not short sighted enough for it usually to be worth the trouble. But the Neurologist at the hospital told me not to bother with a prism as it’s my brain, not my eyes. So bloody confusing.

How am I supposed to know with all this different information? 

On the flip side I have got used to my left leg having altered sensation. Now I have started ignoring what’s trying to tell me. Cold things touching my skin can feel like a crocodile has become attached to my leg. I used to scream the house down, but now I just use mind over matter and carry on. But the problem with that is occasionally my nerves are trying to tell me something important. Like I stepped on some glass and badly cut my big toe, but I ignored it. I was thinking it was that I was being paranoid about that  naughty crocodile having a nibble at me again.

pain-is-a-message-and-you-can-choose-to-ignore-that-message. Paranoid or not?

So what should I learn from this situation? Do I respond when my nerves report pain, or accept this is my life now I carry on?

I suppose I just have to be vigilant and worry less about if me checking all the time makes me look like I’m paranoid or wasting peoples time.

Do you find you get paranoid, and how do you deal with it?

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2 Replies to “Is my brain injury making me paranoid?”

  1. I understand your paranoia, but some of it can be worked through. I just started a job where its important to keep track of numbers to match up samples and keep them in order, in the beginning I was terrible, checking the numbers all the time. Now after some practice I’m not so bad and I believe my brain is finding new ways to complete this task. I’m not an expert but I have come to the conclusion that if you keep working at something the brain will make adaptations to overcome any deficiency’s.

    1. Firstly it’s great to hear you’re getting on well in your new job 🙂 Thanks I believe you’re absolutely right, I just need to keep working at it.

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