At the moment my priority is my elderly Dad. Despite the fact we live opposite sides of the country, I am doing everything I can to help him as his health diminishes with his advancing years. To me that is the biggest responsibility of my life, and I genuinely hope my efforts are good enough. He needs me so this would be an awful time to fail him.

Last night I had a dream about my parents discovering something I had forgot to do. They found I hadn’t put company insurance on Dad’s car, only private. I left dreadful as I tried to explain my error but found I was struggling to remember things properly. It wasn’t that they had a go at me, just that I felt I had let them down. I’m sure this dream was about many factors; My Mum passed 3 weeks after my car accident and Dad doesn’t even have a drivers licence anymore let alone a car. I’m sure this was about trying to put my life back to where it was, but even in my dream my brain injury was still present. So is it the one thing that I can’t imagine changing in another reality?

I have lots to be thankful for, and believe me I am. And I’m sure one day I will bounce back, but I’m not ready yet. As I’m spending so much time at Dads side, I struggle to commit to anything so I can only plan a few days at a time. Mostly because I feel that I might have to change my plans at a moments notice to support him if anything happens. So rather than let people down, I don’t make firm commitments.  I’m very unsure of the future, but at least I have one.

UPDATE 2018

Dad passed away in the Autumn of 2017, which as you can imagine was heart-breaking for me. But I know I made a difference to his life when he needed me most. So that and this blog have inspired me to become a Life coach for those who are affected by brain injury. It you want to learn more about what I do and how I could help you visit Coaching Services.